"The stupidest mistake in life is thinking the one who hurt you the most, won't hurt you again."

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I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.

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Avoiding something doesn't always mean that you hate it, it could also mean that you want it, but it's too complicated.

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It's hurt when someone you know becomes someone you knew.



Sekian.

For that's the way it is with life, as some of the most beautiful days come completely by chance. But even the most beautiful days eventually have their sunsets.

And now, I am going to secure the memories by myself.

And play dumb.

Terima kasih dan jumpa lagi.

sometimes between the days

So , here we go again. The feeling of ^%#^%, the raging emotions, and the unexplained pain inside the heart. And we continuously asked : Dear God, why do I have to go through this again?

p/s : its not bout u. Its about me and myself.

I wont get through it. I'll GROW through it.

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Who knew you'd walk with me when I started walking alone.
Who knew we'd be bestfriends when we were strangers last year.
Who knew we'd talk less today when our hearts spoke yesterday.
Who knew we'd be strangers when we were lovers last winter.

But who knew you'd feel sunshine at dusk and then raindrops at dawn. And that's life; if you don't have your umbrella with you, then feel the rain.

It's beautiful. Too.

Girl

"see her hamburger.."

:)

1 month and 20++ days

Im scared. Seriously.

Im scared, im not superman.

counting days

1 months and 27days more.

Stumble Block

"It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending, there's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
Pieces don't fit here anymore"

A good one by James Morrison. No matter how hard we tried to make it happen. Sometimes when things are not meant to be, its just not meant to be.

A valuable lesson in life gain through experience.

And a very very painful one indeed.

But still, im weak. Im not strong enuff.

*inhale*

cant take it anymore.God,give me some strength.

..

Kadang-kadang, kesengsaraan membuat manusia hilang pertimbangan dan kewarasan, dan mulut mudah berbicara lebih pantas dari otak berfikir.

In a blink of time

Had my 28 week scan today and found out it's a...?

BOY!!! :)

Doc said he's about 1.4kg, Healthy baby boy. OMG! Patut la sakit pinggang .

As usual, I am not allowed to be too stressed and always to remain calm.

O whatever.




I was crying, for..

nothing.

i wish i had enough strength to go through this.

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i will be fine. it's just a matter of time.That's the only thing i keep telling to myself everyday when i wake up from sleep. because i know mourn and regrets for what had happen doesn't help at all.things will get worst.i have to be strong. really strong this time..*sigh*

masa, cepatlah berlalu.
sabar dan sabar.

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masih flu . otak penat . need vacation

Gai Pad Krapow (Yang aku selalu sebut Pak Kepau haha!)

Gai Pad means chicken.
Krapow means Basil Leaf.

So aku google cari recipe pakepau sebab dah dua kali pegi kedai Pakcik apa tah tu, tutup pulak. Nak pegi lagi sekali macam busy je. Saja cari recipe, nanti kalau ada masa aku masak. Tak payah tunggu kedai pakcik tu lagi :)

Thai Basil Chicken is one of those dishes that fits squarely in the category of best-bang-for-your-buck. Not only is it a cheap dish to make, it’s incredibly satisfying, and takes almost no time to make. I dunno about you, but for me, cheap, delicious and easy is the holy trinity of the perfect dish.

Savory, spicy, and redolent of garlic and basil, it’s not like the chicken really needs any help, but what really sets this dish off for me is the fried egg on top. Sunny-side-up and yolk still runny, the egg adds just a touch of velvety richness to this humble weeknight meal. On a pile of hot jasmine rice, this basil chicken is heaven on a plate.

The key to getting perfect little pebbles of moist chicken that are just lightly kissed with caramelized sauce is to use a very hot pan, preferably a wok. Woks work so well for stir fried dishes like this basil chicken because they have so much surface area relative to the amount of food you put in it. Provided you have enough fire under the wok, this means the pan stays very hot allowing you to quickly cook the chicken without drying it out. Unfortunately, most home stoves (including my own) don’t put out enough BTUs to take advantage of a wok’s full surface area.

For those of you who don’t have a commercial gas burner at home, I’ve found that a cast iron skillet produces the desired results. While it doesn’t have the same surface area as a wok, it does retain heat very well, so as long as you preheat it, it will stay hot even after you’ve added the chicken.

I used Thai Basil (horapa) this time, but Gai Pad Krapow is supposed to be made with Holy Basil (kra phao). If you can’t find either type of basil near you, you could theoretically use ordinary fresh basil, but the flavor will be different. Thai basil has a stronger clove-like flavor that is quite distinct from the more anise-like flavor of Mediterranean basil.

Basil Chicken (Gai Pad Krapow)

1 Tbs vegetable oil
4 cloves garlic minced
1-5 thai “bird” chilies minced with seeds
1/2 small onion sliced
1/2 lbs ground chicken thigh meat
1 Tbs fish sauce
2 tsp brown sugar
pinch of white pepper
3 sprigs of Thai Holy Basil, stems removed
2 eggs

Heat a small frying pan over medium heat until hot. Add a splash of oil and crack two eggs into the pan and fry until the white part is set, but the yolk is still soft. Transfer the eggs to a plate to keep them from overcooking.

Heat a wok or a cast iron skillet over medium high heat until very hot. Add the oil, garlic and chilies and stir fry until until the garlic is very fragrant. Add the onions and continue stir frying until the onions have wilted. Add the ground chicken and fry until the chicken is cooked.

Season with the fish sauce, sugar and white pepper. If your pan was hot enough you should not have any liquid at the bottom of the pan, but if you do, continue cooking until the liquid is gone. Add the basil and toss a couple of time until the leaves are wilted and bright green.

Serve the basil chicken with jasmine rice and an egg on top of each plate.

I luv you, loverboy :)